So it's my last day here in florida, because tomorrow i leave to go up north. But all I can say is that I haven't really been doing anything fun over this so called break. But whatever, that's just how they're supposed to be, right? The things that i did do over the break, they were fun, but not that fun. I'm trying my hardest in life to live like there's no tomorrow, but with the way that i'm going, it just doesnt seem like there will be no tomorrow. Cause i already know that since my life is bland, there will be a tomorrow and there always will be.

I don't know how many times i can escape from the things that i'm going to be doing when i'm gone, but i will try my hardest to get onto a computer. The internet is like a second house for me because it keeps me sane, but music is always first, than friends, than internet. Thats how i do. How do you do? You should call me while i'm gone on my cell:813-624-2188. no pranks cause i might know where you live. and besides, how do you really know if this is my real number? Thats for me to know, and you to never find out.

Nothing much has been fun and dandy, but I love life and I love mine right now. But last night was a night that I probably won't forget just for that fact that i had a lot of fun. I snuck out of my house to go hangout with Erica and Melissa. Then we go to Marks house and just hang out there and start talking about people and what they do. It was fun even though you might not think it was. But who are you to know what's fun and what's not? But it was cool. I didnt end up going to sleep until like 3 a.m. and it crazy but i dont curr. That's how i'z roll. But one things for sure, december is the weirdest month for me and i dont like it one bit. I just want it to be over in a hurry so i can eat some curry.

So, it's been a while. So that means probelms and drama have been going on. But that's all in the past, and whats done is done. At the football game last night, it was i guess the first playoff game in 20 years. Thats a while for brandon, but i dont care. I've never really fallen into high school sports except soccer. Its probably the only things thats gotten me through my days. Other than the fact that i've been listening to brand new and playing sic transit gloria on my bass which i've gotten down pretty good.

So i've had this one questions tuck on my mind for a while. Is it weird that you would give your life away for the person you love, even if they don't know that you like them? That's the question thats been bugging me and it seems to not go away. But for all the people that i've asked, they haven't gotten an answer for me. Bummer, right? But everything is all good. There are a bunch of concerts that I am dying to go to all in november and december, and nothing makes me happier than going to concerts on a school night. But undoubtedly, the only concert on a school night is the hawthorne heights silverstein concert which i am going to hands down i'm gonna kick your asses! BAM! I've just schooled you bitches. But there's more to life than concerts right? I mean, there are people to go out with, people to break up with, people to get high with and people to get pregnant, right? I've seen these things happen to some people around me, excluding the preganancy, I hope. But there are some things I would regret. Like, i regret that I picked up smoking again, when I know  what the hell that shit does to me, yet I still continue to do so. Nothing can reaaach out to me to tell me why I shouldn't do it and so far no ones tried to stop me. Wow, so much things can fuck up a persons life and know one would even figured something like this out. WHo'd knew I started smoking?

So the one night of the year was probably last night. Supposidly it's supposed to be the "happiest night of your year", but it was for me, but no during the day. My whole day yesterday before homecoming was fucking HELL!! Most of the places I went to didn't ave most of the things I was looking for and it mad me mad. Not to mention that I got home at 4 in the afternoon and had to get ready in 30 minutes for shit to go down. But when dinner came at carino's, my night started to be the best night. When Erika came in, it was like one of those romance movies, where like everyone in the room disappears and it's only just the two of you. At Carino's last night, it was like that. Than after dinner when we were on out way to homecoming, we were sitting in the back seat in Dave's car, and we kept looking at each other in the rearview mirror. It might sound lame, but it was, it was the best thing that would've probably ever happened. But it wasn't.

So like, when we got to homecoming, the decorations was cool, I got some pretty cool things and whatnot. But than when I was there for only what seemed like 45 minutes, all the "highschool" drama started to kick in. Ok, so one of my friends' boyfriend said something to her about leaving his ticket at home, but we all knew that it wasn't true and that he was going to drink. But than the dumb thing that happened is that he brought in the alcohol and it made her and me and everyone else mad because first of all, why would you bring alcohol to school when you know you're bound to get caught and probably expelled? I was so fliipin like worried about this kid casue there were so many administrators around and it wasn't funny. He could've gotten into some serious shit. And then when I was talking to Hannah about this, she was saying all this stuff about what he said like "Oh who was the one who brought gatordade with smirnoff in it to band practice?" and it wasn't that big for me to bring that becuase first of all, it was after school with only one teacher PLUS it wasn't like you opened the bottle and you can smell it. When he brought in his cup, you could smell the damn thing. But I can't say that I didn't have any cause all I had was just a sip of it. But I can't say that for CJ, I mean he downed a whole cup. CJ. Can you ever think of him doing that? I can't just for the fact that it was him. But than all of a sudden, the kid just starts saying all this stuff like " Oh Ronald's pissing me off cause he's flirting with my girlfriend" and blah blah blah some other stuff I can't remember. I dunno why he saying something like that when all we are is just friends and all we were doing was dancing.

But now, I'm just trying to forget it which I probably won't. But towards the end of the night, before I was about to leave, me and Erika were talking and she was saying how she had a really fun time. I had a fun time too and I was really glad that I went with her because if I didn't, it probably wouldn't be the same. And right before i was about to leave, we kissed. But I didn't want to leave because I wanted to be with her until it was all over. But afterwards, we went to BCB to go cosmic bowling but they had a long line for it because everyone wanted to bowl. But it was probably the best night i've ever had because of Erika and i haven't danced that much in my life. Man, I'm the dirtiest dancer ya'll bitches ever seen!